Mid-November

How is this happening? When did it begin? It is mid-November and these liquid months have been draining through my fingers. They have been for a while, I just hadn’t noticed before.

Wednesday morning found me sitting at the sun-drenched corner table of a nearby coffee shop. Going there, purely with the intention of sitting and writing, is something I haven’t made myself do in years – despite the urging of my husband. He’s usually right, but don’t tell him I told you that.

The past couple of weeks have brought about some changes in attitude on my part. I’ve been coasting for a long time, letting these months run through my fingers, being unwilling to immerse myself in anything. Things end up halfhearted and half-finished. That’s never what I wanted for myself or for my family.

Spontaneity is overrated. It’s taken me 28 years to work that one out. I always thought, especially in my late teens and early twenties, that creativity was spontaneous by nature. I had this idea in my head that creativity was this intangible thing, that great ideas could only happen when the stars aligned and conditions were perfect. I spent so much time just waiting around for it, forgetting that the stars move through the sky on a predictable course and that the perfect conditions can be created.

Mid-November - Thoughts on Creativity

With this personal revelation also comes the important realisation that I am creative. I can give myself regular time to concentrate only on that. There are a myriad of other things which need to be done in the course of a regular day – I’m thinking particularly of the laundry that is air drying on a rack at home by the radiator in my dining room, waiting to be folded and put away. Wednesday mornings are now my time and giving myself the opportunity to concentrate will enable me to do better work with my entire attention. Better work is what I want to do.

I have a few very different projects in mind and scribbled in notebooks. They each need time and effort, as do things around the home and my family. Instead of making empty promises to myself and those around me I can choose to give my whole attention, my whole heart, to one thing at a time. I’m good at multitasking, but focus is what I need now.

10 Comments

  1. Yes! I wholly believe we all are creative and just need to carve out the space for it, whatever it may be. Dump the comparison and just enjoy. xo
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    • Thank you Celina! I honestly can’t believe it’s taken me this long to work it out for myself, that I should have regular creative habits as opposed to just waiting for inspiration to strike (of course, I’m open to that as well!)

  2. I spent so much time just waiting around for it, forgetting that the stars move through the sky on a predictable course and that the perfect conditions can be created. I love this line. And I agree about creativeness. Sometimes it needs a little structured prompting. And I agree….when exactly did it get to be mid-November?!! Seems like life moves at warp speed these days. But sitting and writing in a coffee shop sounds absolutely divine! 🙂
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    • Well I think now that I am working out this routine, I perhaps wont feel particularly creative to begin with… but by association I should start to feel differently (Wednesday + Coffee Shop = Be Creative). I always wondered how people who are creative for a job do it, and I suppose that is exactly how!

      Also, I have no idea how these months are going so quickly. It seems like my sons birthday was last week but it was two months ago.

  3. I agree 100% about that. I’ve learned to just take life one day at a time. It’s been a tough lesson to learn that your life can’t be spontaneous all the time unless you have kids and then every minute of your day is living by the seat of your pants. But it’s nice to enjoy those small moments and even get inspired by your children and helping them explore the world around them. Since they see everything for the first time.
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    • The spontaneity with kids seemed easier when he was younger. When he was about two years old I could just jump up and say “Lets go do something!” Now he’s six he has his own ideas about what is fun and what he wants to do. They don’t always involve me… which is fine, just different.

      He’s also starting to have his own responsibilities, which can stifle that spontaneity… we can’t eat junk food and stay up late watching movies on a weeknight for example, because he has school the following day.

  4. Oh, yes, focus. It’s something I struggle with. 😛 Good luck with your projects!! I’ll come back because I would love to see your creations so I hope you blog about them. 😉

    Have a fantastic weekend!!
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    • Thanks Ramona!

      I will be blogging and sharing the various projects as they come to fruition and I’ve been thinking of perhaps changing up my blog design and “branding” so that there’s some space for them here.

      Have a wonderful weekend!

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